
If I'm ever to do a post about this pregnancy and baby, perhaps I should do it now while I'm STILL pregnant! It's only been in recent weeks and months I've been more open since the obvious fact is stated in my pictures.
I laugh because my time in Grand Junction has either been spent recovery from pregnancy, or pregnant. When we moved, I was 15 weeks and miscarried that very week. Two months later I was pregnant with Jake. My little trooper made it 40 weeks gestation, had six months all to himself, and then I was pregnant again. And here I am, 36 weeks, dilated to a 3 and 50% effaced. I honestly do not remember being just myself. I recognize my fertility is a gift and a challenge all in the same breath. But I must say, I'm looking forward to the days when I eat, sleep, and exercise for the the health of me alone. Plus, Grand Junction has some great outdoor activities I've been anxious to get into.
This pregnancy more than any other I have been a bit discreet. (That is, to those who are distant. If you see me often, I can't hide anything. I started showing at 6 weeks. SIX WEEKS!!!) Only a few caught my
"blog" announcement tucked neatly in between Christmas posts. And I don't know if I've been more discreet because this baby has come so QUICKLY on the heels of Jake (who is 14 months) and I'm still reeling, or if it's baby number FIVE and I'm still reeling, or because I don't want to admit life will be turned upside down again and I'm still REELING with what I've got!!! Heavenly Father sure does have a way of teaching life lessons by bringing you to your knees!!!
Brandon and I "planned" this child under my conviction that we had another girl coming to our family. And NOW was the time. I even appeased my friend and read parts of the book, "How to Choose the Sex of Your Child," so I could draw comfort in knowing I did everything scientific within my control. As the last nine months have played out, I have been grateful to have had comforting experiences confirming all is as it should be. I was not blown away at the ultrasound, but prepared. I was confused about earlier premonitions since "Kate" seemed so real, but I have drawn strength and reassurance from the recent experiences Heavenly Father has allowed me to know this little boy is on his way. For those who are not members of my faith (
Latter Day Saint, a.k.a. "Mormon"), that may seem strange. But to me, the faith I have in an eternal plan for me and my family has been strengthened. I know that my family will be together after this life. And perhaps there may be more members to join at a later time. But as for now...we are having another boy and we are thrilled!

His name has been Fisher from the get go. (I briefly scanned "K" names in the baby name book, but nothing really stood out. I guess I'm going to have to go shopping for new stocking monograms because I did not buy an "F" in my lets-plan-for-the-future Christmas mode.) When we had Corbin, "Fisher" was a consideration, but I was too stubborn to name my child Fisher when the baby room was already decorated in fish, the announcement were already made in the shape of fish, and my husband was a fanatic fisherman. I just couldn't do it. Another name we considered for Corbin was "Drew." But that's where Brandon's stubbornness kicked in. He didn't like it. Poor Corbin did not have a name for three weeks. (Of course he couldn't be named anything but Corbin now, so it's a good thing we kept searching.) When I was pregnant with Drew, I looked at Brandon and said, "what are we going to name him? We can't agree on boys names to save our lives!" I told him I still liked "Drew" and he all of the sudden replied, "I like Drew." Get out!!! Naturally I was a little ticked. Audrey called Corbin, "Baby Budder" for months because he didn't have a name when he was born. Brandon reassured me that this baby, if he was in fact a boy, was Drew. Corbin wasn't and there you have it. So when Jake came along, we were back to "Fisher." But for one reason or another, I felt strongly that wasn't his name. Jacob was his name. But neither Brandon nor I liked the name "Jacob." The feeling and promptings were so strong, we settled on naming him Jacob and calling him, "Jake." In Jake's baby blessing, Brandon spoked of the men and prophets in the scriptures he was named after so I thought that was cool. I guess some kids come knowing what they want to be called.
Well, when people ask me what this baby's name is, I say, "Fisher, but we've tried twice before and it hasn't worked." Seriously, I don't want to fight about names. Especially in the hospital. Done that, been there, bad news. But I think it's really going to stick this time. The baby room is still in fish and Brandon is still an avid fisherman, but four boys later I'm over it! And it's a cute name! Of course, "Brandon" will be the middle name and that's a story in an of itself. All boys have their dad's name for their middle name. Period. Apologies to the grandfathers, but what more can you ask for when we're popping out so many boys to carry on the WILLIAMS name? ON BOTH SIDES NO LESS!!! Haha.
It has been so cute to hear the kids refer to my belly as "Baby Fisher." They love to feel him move, kiss my belly and talk to him. Even Audrey is affectionate knowing she is the only girl in the lineup. She was pretty tender when we found out that we were having a boy. Driving in the car one day she asked me, "Mom, is Kate ever going to come?" I said, "Maybe, but you might have to have her!"
Drew will put his face right up against my stomach and say, "Baby Fisher, come out and play." And today when I told Drew I had to go to the doctor, he asked me if baby Fisher was O.K.

Here's a profile pic at 30 weeks gestation.
At our 21-week ultrasound, a problem was detected with his kidneys. Subsequently, we have been back for ultrasounds every 4-6 weeks to monitor my progress and Fisher's progress. As of last week, his left kidney is about twice the size of his right, although both are dilated, the ureter on the left is inflamed, and both are blocked going into the bladder. But apparently something is working because I have plenty of fluid in my uterus. It is not a reflux problem, but a blockage issue. When the kidneys developed, they did so incorrectly according to textbook. All in all, we will watch him when he's born for infection and proper functionality. We will more than likely be referred to a specialist, but we hope the problem resolves on its own! If not, surgery has been offered as an option in the next year.
Getting so many ultrasounds has not been all bad. We have seen some cool footage and 3-D pictures of little Fisher. This face shot was when I was 25 weeks. He was moving his hand so his fingers are not clear.

And of course, each time, the technicians measure his growth and chart his progress. Just so happens we are going for either basketball players or football players. This little fella is big!!! At last weeks' ultrasound, he topped the charts above 100%. (I will be getting an epidural this time. I'm done pushing out big- headed, wide-shouldered, "Brandon" offspring without drugs.) I asked the doctor if he was concerned about Fisher's size since I certainly was. He said, "We don't care how big the babies are, as long as they stay on their own growth curve." Thanks Doc. I really sensed your empathy.
Today my belly measured 38 centimeters...about two centimeters ahead of where Jake was at this point and right on for a Drew baby who was born 2 weeks early weighing 8 lbs. 15 oz. If only that weight and size translated to baby sleeping through the night earlier. That wives tale is rubbish!!! All big babies have meant for me is "Feed me more. I'm hungry!" Audrey slept through the night at seven weeks and she was born at 7 lbs., three weeks early! Then again, she has always been my dream sleeper. Takes after her dad.
Anyway, I am feeling a bit more calm and prepared this week as I finally have the car seat and baby gear cleaned, the baby clothes washed, and a hospital bag packed. I even got the school supply shopping done and in backpacks. I really don't clean my house because that's futile. I'm tired of bending over to pick up every last item the kids have taken out of their rooms, the cupboards, the bathroom, from outside, the trash, you name it. It's enough just to take care of them and nag the older ones to clean up after themselves.
So if I had any bits of "nesting" energy come...it has now left. I make it through the days to do just that - make it through. I still sleep pretty good so I consider that a blessing. If I didn't feel Fisher trying to kick and punch his way out, contract ALL the time, or have to tote another baby around on my big bump, I'd be sitting pretty!

At least I'm starting to feel like I look pretty good for how far along I am. I tell everyone I put on all my weight and belly size in the beginning and then by the end I don't do much. So after three months of looking like I'm ready to pop and answering every concerned comment about how low I am carrying, I've actually caught up. Too bad my "feeling like I look good" ends the moment the baby comes out. Back to the five-month pregnant look for another year. :)