
This post has been a long time coming...months, probably even years. So why today? Why now? Because some well-intentioned soul told me again the phrase I have heard repeated over and over. "You are going to miss these days and wish you could have them back." Well, I don't know if it was fear or overwhelment because I started crying. (She has seven children and the youngest is 9.) Really??? This is as good as it gets? I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT!
I just returned from taking the two little boys out for a walk. It is a beautiful spring day and after a long cooped-up winter with too much T.V., one would think "Dreamy!" Right? WRONG! Jake screamed the entire time, and Drew cried off and on because I buckled him in after he ran off and dumped rocks in some random lady's fountain. According to Drew, "I'm working." Fortunately the owner came outside and scolded him and only then did he run away. To my repeated beckoning calls and threats? No response. Need I mention I was with a friend whose dog was a bit spastic which only added to the chaos? I would have given up long before and came home had I not had a walking partner and needed the adult conversation.
Anyway, back to the "post." I am sure I do not fully comprehend what I'm really going to miss, otherwise I would not want to kick the person telling me that. Everyone has their stages that they love. I do not think babies and small toddlers are my favorite. And yet, I've been here for almost 9 years and I'm not done! Short, I know, compared to some. But that's almost 1/3 of my life. I look forward to future stages. In fact, I think I've relaxed as much as I have because Audrey is finally reaching some of those stages and I can see some light in this dark tunnel. Finally at age four, I contemplate cute and tolerable, but seven seems to be magic. (Although at 8 1/2 I can see we are starting to come off that wave and entering another "limit testing" era, but still, she's completely potty trained, sleeps through the night, and becoming more of a help when she wants.)
Perhaps my issue is I haven't left this stage since I started BECAUSE I KEEP HAVING BABIES so I haven't had time to "miss" anything. But then again, I LOVED my college days, single, less worries, fun, and 100% fit, but that doesn't mean I want to go back. There were still hard times and hard work that went into that lifestyle just like now.
I am trying to enjoy this stage as best to my ability so I won't EVER want to come back. (Not so much to spite what others say, but because I don't want to wish I had enjoyed them more while they lasted.) Just recently I told Brandon I could not do what he does and he could not do what I do. No way, no how. This is tough work. And some day it will be worth it. But I cannot forsee "missing" sleepless nights, CONSTANT messes, crying, whining, and screaming children because they think that is their best form of communication. I do not believe I will miss potty training, fighting, pure exhaustion from constantly caring for little dependents who want to do things on their own but still need help. Feeding them, bathing them, dressing them, SEVEN TIMES A DAY!
Perhaps I will miss knowing where my children are at all times (not that I even do now.) MaybeI will miss developing language skills such as, "Mom, I want to lap you" (Sit on my lap.) Or even , "Mom, you are going to drop me?" (Referring to dropping the boys off at a friends house.) And my favorite, "I need some toyet napkin." (Toilet paper) I will miss happy giggles and laughs. I will miss watching their little personalities develop. Kindness between the siblings. Funny faces of pure emotion. Goofy silly things that kids do. So that's why I take pictures! So I can remember the good, the bad, and the ugly.
The past few months I have started collecting some of my favorites of Drew. Considering we've just wrapped up his third year of life, he's at the perfect age I'm describing. If pictures of my others were easily accessible, I would include those as well. Maybe someday.
Drew has such a cute, loveable, laughable personality. Who wouldn't melt over a face like this? Bruises and all. :) He uses it often to finagle his way out of trouble.

Being mean to Jake and screaming back in his face.

"Sorry Jakers, I kiss him better."

While shaking his innocent head from side to side, "I color on paper mom, not my faaaccce!" Hmmm, he seems to know right from wrong yet still chooses to get his mom's attention by breaking the rules!

Drew cracks me up with his face and head gear. Whether it's goggles, safety glasses, face masks, or hats, he's definitely an accessorized little boy.


If Drew's hungry, he helps himself. The cheerios, the watermelon, the berry shake. Aaaah, independence has a price.


Here's a typical tantrum face. If he doesn't get what he wants, watch out drama.

Helping mom in the kitchen takes patience and kindness on my part. :) He has to do everything himself. Did I mention all of the kids could cook their own eggs at age two. "I DO IT!" Although, Drew has a good attitude about helping and I don't want to squash that desire. :)


Drew's creative side while making cookies. The mess speaks for itself.

And Drew's loving side. He adores his siblings. He looks up to Corbin, Audrey will help him if he needs something, and he gets excited and wants to hold Jake every time he wakes from a nap.

Drew keeps everyone laughing and cursing at the same time. We would not be complete without any of our children! They are making us better people and teaching us what love is about.
Anyway, I left out some of the more graphic scenes, like diareah poop on the kitchen floor, crayon covered walls, permanent marker all over the rug, naked boy running away from me down the street, me, laying in the middle of the floor trying to take a nap while kids crawl over the top and interrupt every 30 seconds, requesting one thing or another. Mom, Mom, Mom, MOOOOOM! Of course I never do fall asleep, it's merely an attempt to rest my weary bones. :)
If you are a mom, you know what I'm talking about. I know I am in good company and this journey is not one I travel alone. I'm just restating my feelings, I have good days and bad, sort of a love/hate relationship with life, but I do not believe I will miss these days and wish them back. :) So although I cannot control what other people say, I can listen (maybe cry) and politely nod my head and think, "speak for yourself." Living through them once, twice, or (heaven help me) FIVE times - that's good enough for me. :)